Why Did I Become the Villainess?

Chapter 364 : Worries

Chapter 364  : Worries

 A day has passed, and the whereabouts of the three leads are still unknown. Father sent an update this morning and informed us that they still haven't found any of the three. So, they are planning to search each and every nook of the forest to find them.

 Ever since we received the news, all I ever did was walk around the house, trying to calm myself down. However, no matter what I did, I couldn't help but worry about them.  I was about to walk outside our garden when I heard the conversation of the maids.

 "What do you think have happened to his highness, Prince Fraser and Prince Rufus? Do you think they are still safe?"

  "Safe? I don't want to say this, but I think they are not. You know the skills of Prince Fraser and Prince Rufus, even Sir Farren's skill is unparalleled. They will immediately finish all their enemies and return home. I think the reason why they haven't returned yet is because someone or all of them are in a perilous situation."

  I heard a gasp after, and then their voices became soft. They probably don't want anyone to hear their conversation. "Do you mean their life might be in danger now?"

  "Yes, do you really think his highness will stay outside, knowing how dangerous it is? The reason why he is still outside is that he might be injured right now, and he doesn't have any choice. Or worst..."

  "Are you saying there's a possibility that his highness is already dead?"

  I cover my mouth and shake my head. No! He is not! How can the male lead die? It cannot be!   I lean on the wall and close my eyes. My mind then starts playing the scene where Prince Fraser, Rufus, and Princess Paislee are lying lifelessly on the ground. Their blood dyed the ground red.   I shake my head repeatedly. No! It cannot be! How can they die? The story hasn't even reached its climax? How can it end like that?

  I was too engrossed with my thoughts that I didn't notice that I was already gasping for air while sobbing.   I feel a hand touch my head. I look up and find Mother looking at me worriedly. It was only then I managed to hear what was happening around me.

 "My dear, what happened? Why are you crying?" She then guides me to sit on the sofa. "Csille, what happened?"

 I shake my head and just hug her. I don't even know why I am crying right now. I don't know if it's because Prince Fraser and the other probably died already or because I know what will be the consequences of their death. But no matter what, all I know is I am currently in pain just by thinking about it.  I feel Mother gently caress my back while saying things to calm me down. "My dear, tell me what happened. Why are you crying? It hurts me to see you like this."

  I hug Mother tightly. "Mother, what if... what if the reason why they can't find Prince Fraser and the rest is because they already left this world? What—"

  All the words I wanted to say were cut short when Mother broke off from the hug and stared at me with horror. "Csille! How can you say something like that about your fiancée? Do you want to get widow immediately?"

  There is a saying in the Vrawyth Kingdom that talking about one's husband's death is a bad omen. Because most of the time, it usually happens.   I shake my head. I know Mother said that because she is worried about me. After all, once a lady gets married or engaged at the least, it will be difficult for her to remarry again. So, it's really a rule for any ladies not to spout anything about their husband's death.

 "Mother, I don't want to. How can I wish for his highness death? I just..." I shake my head. "I just couldn't help but think, what if..." I feel my voice trembles. "What if something already happened to them? What will I do, Mother?"

  Mother took my hand and held it tightly. "My dear, don't think like that. You know his highness. He isn't the type of person who can easily be defeated. I'm sure they are just out there. So, don't worry, okay? Everything will be all right."

  "But if he is okay, why isn't he here? Why haven't they returned yet? It's his birthday soon. He knew everyone was waiting for his birthday. Do you really think he would let those people wait for him?"

  His majesty initially planned to hide the news about the royalties' disappearance. However, the people are not blind and dumb. They have already put the pieces together and realize that the two heirs to the throne of Vrawyth Kingdom are missing.  It was already too late for his majesty to control the news. In the end, he just releases an update every then and now to ensure the public that he is doing his best to find the Crown Prince.

  If Prince Fraser is still okay, I'm sure he would immediately return to the capital because he knows it will be detrimental to the Vrawyth Kingdom if he offends some of his guests.

 But he isn't here, and there is only one reason why he isn't here.  He is in a dangerous situation.   I heard Mother heaves a deep sigh. She then caresses my head. "My dear, I know you are only worried about his highness, but thinking about negative things won't help you. Why don't you focus on thinking that they are okay? Don't let these worries eat you up. I'm sure they are all okay out there. You'll see, your Father will definitely send good news to us."

 I look at Mother. Will he? I quite doubt that. There is something inside of me telling me that something terrible has happened.

 I just wish it isn't too bad like death.  Please don't die on me, Prince Fraser, Princess Paislee, and Rufus. You cannot die.

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  After the crying session with my Mother, she sends me to my room to take some sleep. She told me sleeping could help me ease my mind. However, I had been lying on my bed for almost two hours already, and I still couldn't sleep a wink. I just stare at my ceilings and numb myself.   It's quite working. I guess because I haven't thought of anything for two hours now. Although I feel like a paper slowly drifting through the wind. I may not be thinking of anything right now, but I feel like I am slowly losing my senses. All I know is I am still awake and nothing more.

  I was still busy staring blankly when I suddenly heard my door open. I didn't look who opened my door. I know it is just Mother. She is probably just here to check on me again.

 "My dear, are you awake? Why is your room so dark? Why don't you open some lamp?"

 Although I heard Mother's questions, I just remain doing nothing. I don't have the energy to speak to anyone. I just want to numb my senses so I can stop myself from thinking things over and over again.

 A moment after, light flooded my room. I immediately closed my eyes because the light almost blinded me.  "You're awake? Why didn't you answer my question?"

  And just like earlier, I didn't answer her question. I just cover my eyes using my arm because my eyes don't like the light.

  I feel a hand gently caress my head. "My dear, is everything okay? Why are you not saying anything?"

 I heave a sigh and slowly take my arm away from my eyes. Although I remain closing my eyes.   "Mother, can you turn off the lamp?"

  Aside from that, my eyes couldn't relax with the light. I don't want her to see my current state. I know Mother is worried about Prince Fraser too, and that worry is double because she is also worried about her daughter. I don't want to worry her more. She has already taken a break from working today, so she can accompany me today. I don't want to burden her.

  Mother got silent for a moment before I heard her stand up, and a second after, the lamp was turned off. I softly heave a sigh of relief.   I open my eyes, and darkness welcomes me again. The only light in my room is the moonlight that is passing through my window.

  I look at Mother, who is now sitting beside me. "Thank you, Mother."

  "Are you okay, Csille?"

  Am I okay? I smile bitterly. How can I be okay knowing my life is hanging by a thread? But I know I couldn't tell that to her.

  "I am okay, Mother. Don't worry about me."   Mother gently caress my head. "My dear, you don't have to pretend if you are not okay. I am your Mother. Do you think I wouldn't know you are lying?"

  If she knows, why does she still ask about it? I didn't say anything and remained quiet. How should I respond to that? Admit that I am not okay? Wouldn't that worry her?   I heard Mother heaves a sigh. "I know you don't want to worry me, but it will worry me more if you keep lying to me about what you are feeling. I want to know how you are doing, Csille. I want to know what you are feeling."

  I get up from lying and stare at Mother. She wants to know what I am feeling? I am dead worried about the three Royalties. But what can I do? What can we do?   I shake my head. "I am okay, Mother. Does Father send an update already?"

  Mother got silent for a couple of seconds. She is probably contemplating if she should pursue the conversation about how I feel.

  I heard her sigh after. "Your Father hasn't sent any updates. Maybe they are still busy searching for the three of them. Don't worry. I'm sure once he finishes his work for today, he will immediately update us."

  Does it mean they still haven't found the three royalties? But if they don't, doesn't the chance of finding them decrease every hour?   "Mother, what if... What if it's too late already—"

  Mother gasp. "My dear, what are you talking about? We already talk about this earlier, right? Take your words back. Nothing will happen to them, okay? They are probably just hiding somewhere."

  I shake my head. I know it's not good to be pessimistic in this kind of situation. But how long are we going to keep denying the fact that there are people who want to harm the Crown Prince? If the Vrawyth Kingdom doesn't have any heir to the throne, it means...

  I stare at Mother. "Mother, until when we are going to refuse the possibility that maybe... maybe they were already gone? Do you think his highness will keep lurking outside if he already knows it's dangerous? We also know how many guests have arrived in the Vrawyth Kingdom already, and some of them are nemesis. Do you think they wouldn't grab the chance to harm the Crown Prince?"

  Mother got silent for a moment. She's probably thinking about what I have said. She knows there's a big possibility that what I am saying might be true.

  A moment after, I saw her shake her head. "Csille, don't speak like that again, okay? Especially if you are with other people."

  I heave a sigh. In the end, she still dismissed the idea. Although I don't want to think that way, I couldn't help it. It's been two days already, and we still haven't heard a thing about the three royalties. My mind couldn't stop but think about what could have happened to them.   "Mother, when can I join the search? I couldn't stand staying here anymore. I don't want to just wait for updates about them. I want to help them search for his highness. I want to look for them too. So, please, Mother. Allow me."