Second Marriage: My Strongest Bodyguard

Chapter 45 - Think Of Each Other

At night, Bryana was pensive on the balcony in front of her room, holding a glass of red wine. She wore knee-length overalls with no cloth on her arms, leaving her hair loose and already removing the make-up on her face.

"What is he doing, will he be approached by Kareen.. it hurts like this. Just a topic of conversation, suspicious, even though there is no clarity between us! How long do I have to make him realize that I like him, want him?"Bryana monologized to herself as she stared at the darkness of the sky.

Bryana couldn't stop thinking about Dean who was spending the night at his own house because he had to finish preparations for the celebration tomorrow. Bryana's wish, who wanted to see Sofia happy before her birthday, was always accompanied by her father. but considering Kareen who also lived there, Bryana was suspicious that her secretary could tease her favorite bodyguard.

"Does he have no taste for me? Am I too confident that he will like me he was always insecure and did not immediately express his feelings? I am a woman, employer, there is no way I could first tell about my feelings!" Bryana exhaled rough, then drank the glass of red wine until it runs out.

"When will you realize that I want you, Dean? What if I get tired and choose to leave? Are you going to chase me?" Bryana started to grow angry and threw the glass that was no longer filled with drinks on the floor until it was scattered.

it seemed that the young widow was getting tired of beckoning her bodyguard. Moreover, at this time her favorite bodyguard was not nearby, but in his own house and there was another woman who would like him, teasing him.

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By the time it was nine o'clock in the evening, Dean had finished all the preparations for tomorrow afternoon's party. Room decorations, gifts, ordering rice boxes, and invitations are ready.

the man was standing on the edge of the porch with his hands in his pockets, staring at Bryana's car, which had been abandoned so that tomorrow morning he could come to pick her up early. For some reason, after not staring at her beautiful and enchanting face for several hours, the bodyguard felt restless. He wants to go back to the employer's house and see her face, make sure it is safe. But he could not leave his daughter whom he wanted to accompany tonight.

"Dean." Someone called from behind him. Dean immediately glanced at someone it was his mother who was now standing beside him.

"Is Sofia asleep, Mom?" asked Dean looking back at the page.

"Yes, she's with Kareen," Lily replied calmly. she glanced at Dean who was back to reverie, making her want to ask about Bryana's kindness who seemed to put hope in his son.

"Dean, are you and Bryana in a relationship?" asked Lily, finally braving herself.

"Of course not, Mom. we're just friends and we're not going to be in a relationship because he won't accept me," explained Dean with a tinge of sadness on his face.

"But I see that she likes you. And I can see from your eyes, your attention, your attitude, you like her too, right?" Lily insisted.

"Yeah, but I can't help but cover it up because I don't deserve it," explained Dean.

Lily sighed, it turned out that her guess was right. Bryana and Dean like each other, while Dean is very self-aware and feels unworthy. just like when he was with Clarissa, her son was also insecure but Clarissa still wanted to be married.

"I don't want what happened in your past to happen again. Bryana is just like Clarissa who needs a lot of guards, that means Bryana's family has a lot of enemies," said Lily while remembering her late daughter-in-law.

"I also don't want what happened to Clarissa to happen to anyone, especially Bryana! I will protect him as much as I can, even though I have to harbor my feelings!" Dean emphasized.

Wait! What happened to Clarissa? Didn't she die in childbirth?

"Instead of you being tormented, it's better to find work elsewhere and marry Kareen. I saw that she loves Sofia, cares for you. She's also a nice and well-mannered girl, no different from Bryana or Clarissa." Lily even suggested Kareen to Dean.

Dean only responded to his mother with a faint smile, then looked up at the sky. "Kareen is just a friend and sister to me. I admit the kindness and affection she gives to Sofia are matchless. But love cannot be forced." Dean turned to look at his mother. "I can't marry her, Mom. Never can."

"Then, are you going to try to confess your feelings to Bryana? What if she rejects you?" Lily asked a little curtly. She felt bad for Kareen because Dean would reject her.

"I don't know," replied Dean, then turned to walk toward the house, leaving his mother alone.

Kareen, who had been eavesdropping near the main door, immediately hid behind the door when she realized Dean was about to enter the house.

'What do I lack, Dean? why is there not the slightest bit of your love for me? You even love Bryana who has a troubled family background, many enemies, always in the same danger as the late Clarissa!' Kareen exclaimed silently while clenching her fists. she was so upset that she could never get Dean's love.

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It was eleven o'clock at night, Bryana still couldn't sleep because she kept thinking about Dean. She lies on her queen-size bed which has a rose-redd sheet, holding her smartphone. she wanted to contact Dean but didn't know what to say.

"Hold on, Jill! If he loves you, he must call you first!" Bryana reminded herself.

Until a few minutes, she still couldn't sleep and be very worried that Kareen would tease Dean. Curiosity and anxiety hit her mind, she grabbed her smartphone again and was about to contact the beloved bodyguard.

Drett ... Drettt.

Her smartphone rings first before she will call. And so you know, the one calling was Dean! Bryana also smiled grimly and immediately answered.

"Hello, Dean," Bryana said trying to be calm, even though she was very excited.

"Hello, Jill ... Are you all right?" asked Dean from the phone.

"Oh, yes. Everything is safe," Bryana replied, hugging the bolster.

"Oh good."

There was a moment of silence between them until finally, Bryana tried to find a topic of conversation because it turned out that Dean was just asking how she was.

"Have all the preparations been completed?" Bryana asked as she played the rope on her bolster.

"Yes," replied Dean sounding relaxed. "Thank you for everything ... And I'm sorry for Sofia's attitude that likes you too much and wants you to be her mother." This time he sounded nervous.

Bryana gave a wry smile, then tilted her body. "Don't think too much of it. I know how Sofia feels. she did want a mother figure she had not had since she was a baby. You have to understand that and don't hesitate to me if she wants to call me like her mother. "

"Yes, sometimes those are the times that make me the saddest and think about finding a mother for her."

"Have you found it?" Bryana asked casually even though she was very curious.

"I have, but it's very unlikely. She's too perfect for me." Dean answered in a very sad voice.

Bryana fell silent trying to understand what kind of woman Dean meant. Was the woman who was Sofia's mother was herself? And the bodyguard said "Impossible" because he was insecure and felt he didn't deserve to be side by side with the boss.

Ah, the woman is getting restless. Maybe the bodyguard likes it but doesn't dare to reveal it because it's insecure. Should she say it first? What if she wasn't the woman Sofia wanted to mother with?

"Jill," Dean called from the phone.

The reverie Bryana returned to focus on the phone and said, "nothing is impossible, Dean. Love comes from the heart and love is a gift from God. If only the woman you want also loves you, you should fight and unite your love. never look down on yourself, because love is blind. The woman you love can accept all your imperfections. But you are a perfect man, that woman will be very lucky if you propose to her."

Bryana said as if to make Dean understand her feelings.