Royal Princess: Doted On By The Mafia King

Chapter 198 - Loneliness

Rose's heart froze. She knew very well who that was. She remembered the coldness in his eyes earlier and she looked up at the warmth visible in the dark eyes of the man she was dancing with.

When the dance was finally over and a few other young men who thought themselves qualified requested to dance with her.

"I feel tired for her," Carl said as he watched from the side. After her first dance, the dance floor has other couples dancing on it.

"She did not ask you to feel that way. I am sure she is doing fine," Eric said.

"You should really have asked her to the first dance. That would have been the only means you might ever have to confess to her.

"She has found a lot of worthy suitors and you are not even on the list," Carl told Eric without restraint.

"I told you that I don't have feelings for her. She is my friend and nothing more. I only wish her happiness," the Eric tried without progress to persuade Carl.

When he got fed up with Carl's pestering, he invited a very beautiful quiet girl to dance with him so he could escape.

"She is obviously a friend," Carl said sarcastically as he took another glass of wine.

He winced when he took a sip. Feeling bored since Eric had gone, he also invited a girl to dance with him.

***

Rose groaned tiredly. Her body has almost reached its limit and she was in desperate need of rest.

She called her assistant to her to room after she sat on the massage chair and let the machine do a good job of loosing up all her tensed muscles.

"You called for me, your highness," Her assistant spoke when she got to the princess.

"Yes I did. I am really in need of some sugary stuff. Will I be able to get ice cream? I want some chocolate ice cream," Rose told her.

"Yes, I will get it for you," the assistant accepted her task and left.

Rose looked at the fridge she had in the living area of her chamber which only had water in it and frowned. She should really have them fill it up with some sweet stuff.

She had no idea why Liam was obviously angry with her during the party. He did not even try to celebrate with her secretly even if they were in a secret relationship.

She remembered the general who acted very enthusiastic about being in a relationship with her that he saved his number on her phone when she refused to give him hers.

Liam must not have any idea of how she could betray him and have someone else help her while making sure he gets prevented from carrying out a revenge on her.

He might have the best bodyguard company in the kingdom but the general should have a way to protect her from him, right?

***

Liam did not contact her afterwards. She expected him to call later that day but he seemed to be giving her some distance which made her angry.

She might have thought towards betraying him but she could not bring herself to do so especially with someone from the Northern kingdom.

Since he did not call her first for a while, she did not bother to call him since she did not have any urgent need that might require her to throw her pride away.

She was finally going back to Star city to resume school after weeks of intense training.

She met with the Royal council twice and she noticed a lady who she sensed hostility from although that lady was not the only person showing their displeasure with her status as the heir but she felt this lady's case was a lot different, it felt personal.

She saw Carl during the meeting and her curiosity increased. He was not even twenty but he had already become a member of the Royal council.

He also seemed to get along with some of the members of the council despite their age difference.

Her meetings with the council was simply for formal introduction to the members of the council.

She found out that most of the members of the council her mother told her about, were not present and neither were their heirs present.

The council was dominated by the northerners so much that she could not help but feel intimidated in their presence but she maintained a confident and fearless countenance.

She asked if she could stay in the dormitory but her father told her she could not because of her safety.

Her father reminded her that there were a few people who lost a lot during her mother's reign and they will all come after her if she is not well protected.

She actually did not want to stay in the dormitory but she asked to find out how things were knowing that they will definitely not let her.

Hearing her father's reply then, she knew that things will get a lot harder for even the princess. All the anger directed towards her mother in the past will be inherited by her and will be all hers.

Her mother was one of the most hated people in the world before her death. After the bomb attack and during the strange economic recession that at only disturbed those in the south, the hate towards her mother increased.

Then, there was a newly developed bacteria that no one was aware of its origin got developed to add more to the people's pain and her mother was accused of everyone of them.

She knew from the video that her mother was not involved at all. However, her mother was blamed for it all.

She was going to find the trail of all the problems, find those who did it and kill them after restoring the reputation of her mother.

They said the higher you climb, the harder you will fall and that was just what happened to her mother who was once the most celebrated person in the two kingdoms.

She was loved and adored then. The elders of the south who were angry that she sold their Kingdom for love all came to love her after the first year of her rule.

The glory did not even last for two years before things went wrong. She was going to carry out a research on how everything started.

She was going to find a way to link every event to the other and draw the part to the person or people behind it and their motive.

Her new home in Star city was the renovated palace. When she stepped into the large palace, she felt unhappy.

It was the old palace but everything in it was new and modernized. She could not find anything familiar in it.

It also felt excessively large and it made her feel alone. She remembered the house Liam got renovated for them and decided that she won't mind getting found out but she could not sleep in this house alone.

She grabbed her purse and the key of one of her cars. She told no one as she snuck out to the garage and drove out of the gates minutes later.

She needed fresh air. After driving for a while, she parked on a hill and got down from her car. She walked to the edge and inhaled.

The wind was cold in a way that felt soothing.

"Mum, I am back but I don't feel happy. I know you want me to remain in the palace but it is suffocating. It is so spacious yet so tight," she murmured to the breeze that blew swirling the end of her gown.

"I thought I will feel better here in star city but I feels harder than ever. It reminds me of you and the fact that I might never see you again."

She sat down on the grass and cut a blade of grass. She felt really tired. She tried to lock her emotions up but it seems that the more she tried, the more she got hurt.

She felt so alone and she did not want it to continue. She was only eighteen for goodness's sake.

"I just started but I feel tired already. I feel so exhausted. I know this is what you want but that means I will never live a happy life, right?

"You were happy for a while, weren't you? There was a time you had your mother and you were happy. When your mother died, you had your father and you were still happy.

"What did I have as your daughter if not pain and hurt every single day? I can't trust anyone, I can't love anyone and I must remain among the very people that I think killed you.

"I think I will lose my mind if I go on this way. I thought I could do it. I thought it was going to be possible to live alone for vengeance but I can't."

She sniffed and rubbed her tears off as more rolled down her cheeks.. She began crying more but the more she cried and the more she felt mistreated by fate, the more she wanted to get revenge and the more she wanted those who caused it dead.