Chapter 176 The Valentine's Day Arc (32) : Answering Mr. Liu's Insecurities
Chapter 176 The Valentine's Day Arc (32) : Answering Mr. Liu's Insecurities
Chapter 176 The Valentine's Day Arc (32) : Answering Mr. Liu's Insecurities
Ai, who felt delirious after the string of kisses ended, was zapped with lightning as the question registered in her mind. Jun's question was so direct and to the point that made her heart flutter rapidly as if a thousand butterflies took flight at once.
"I don't want to scare you, but I don't want to hide my desire either," Jun cleared his throat.
Shit!
Now that he thought about it, he immediately felt stupid for asking about making love in the heat of the moment. He wished he could just strangle himself.
"No, wait. Forget that I asked…" he averted his gaze with a strange fear that gripped his heart.
Fast…too fast…
Ai's stupor broke, and she furrowed her brows. She observed a sense of terror shining in his beautiful dark brown irises. She held his head between her hands and made him face her. "Why are you looking like that?"
"...Like what?"
"Like you are afraid of something. Also, why should I forget your question?" She didn't understand. stiffened. He was at a loss as to how to put it into words.
"Nothing."
Ai narrowed her eyes. "This will be the first rule of our relationship. We won't hide anything. If there are any concerns, we will share it with each other and look for a solution together."
Jun felt stupid once again, realizing that she was right. He forgot what hurt the most in his past life was that Jin and Shui hid their feelings from him.
Lying, hiding…
How could he do the same with Ai which had broken his heart in the past?
Taking a long breath he answered, feeling slightly ashamed. "I am sorry I suddenly popped such a question to you. I don't want to scare you."
Then he fell silent.
Ai frowned. "But I am not afraid-"
The conversation between Shui and Jun on New Year's Eve flashed before her eyes instantly, and things fell in place for her. She remembered how much Shui's words had hurt him. To know that his ex-girlfriend was afraid of him…what could possibly be more of a blow than that?
Jun gritted his teeth and combed his hair in frustration. "Okay, I know tonight is not the right time to talk about…about Sh-Shui, but I don't want to make you feel like how she-"
Ai tiptoed and sealed his mouth with a kiss.
Jun blankly stared at her in a daze, his eyelashes trembling.
Ai pursed her lips and said, looking straight into his eyes, "You are right. Tonight is not the time I want to hear about your ex-girlfriend Han Shui from you."
He clenched his fist. "I-I didn't mean it like that…"
"Neither do I want to hear you say that you make me feel afraid because you don't." ?
She expressed it like a plain, simple fact instead of trying to convince him. Her soft voice was peaceful to listen to which was filled with her sincerity and calmness.
"I was never once afraid of you, Jun. Whether it was that night you killed that thief or that night when Shui confronted you - I never once thought that you made me uncomfortable. Your different sides surprised me for sure. But I was never and I am not scared of you."
"That-that is because we were just strangers back then. But now we are in a relationship. My love…from her, you have that idea about how I love," this was the part where Jun's heart raced with apprehension. He wanted to have this conversation with her at the Summit after she confessed. But watching Yating ask her out made him flip out and throw that thought out of the window. Before he could talk to her, he kissed her, sealing his answer and their relationship.
Ai blinked. "I can imagine, and I accept it. I want you to love me the way you want to without any reservations, otherwise what's the point of this relationship if we cannot be ourselves?"
Jun thought about his past life and parted his lips as he spoke, "...Even if I message you many times a day if or when we will be away?"
"I will feel lonely if you don't," she stated. "I missed you a lot when I left this home…" her gaze dimmed, "I will never be annoyed by your messages because rather than having silence, I prefer you shower me with tons of messages."
He trembled.
"Even if I want to be with you wherever you want to go?"
"Apart from the women's restroom, yes. We will always be together," she nodded.
He choked.
I didn't mean it that far…Anyway…
"E-Even if I tell you not to talk to some people? Mostly men…" his gaze darkened thinking about Yating.
Ai tilted her head. "I will only talk to them if they are connected to me professionally and by keeping a proper distance. Personally, I won't do anything that will make you feel uncomfortable because I wouldn't want that either from your side."
That was fair enough…Jun thought.
He then mumbled, "You won't be angry if I get jealous and possessive?"
Ai smiled. "That is a part of being in a relationship, isn't it? It would be sad if you don't feel jealous because that would mean that I don't matter to you."
"I-I mean if you find it too much…" he coughed.
"How is too much? Will you hit me?"
His expression turned ugly. "Of course not! I will never hit you. If I did so even in an impossible event, just cut off my arms without a thought!"
Her jaw dropped, but his words filled her heart with warmth too.
"Then will you be so possessive that you will lock me up in a room?"
"Are you an idiot? You are my woman, not my prisoner. Why will I lock you up!?"
"Then why will I be angry at you?"
Jun was stumped at her counter question. "I don't know…"
Ai shook her head and hugged him. "You don't have to ask me these questions. If I had any doubts about you, I wouldn't have fallen for you and confessed to you. I love you, Jun. Whoever you are, however you are - I love Liu Jun just the way he is. I don't want you to change anything for me."