Chapter 67? 067
Chapter 67? 067
Once a teenager with Asperger's disease used a metaphor to describe his difference from normal people.
He said that ordinary people's big trouble is like the windows operating system running in a socialized world, and the brain of Asperger's disease only operates slowly under the DOS system.
In addition to being slow, various errors can occur.
This is a fact that can never be changed, and is a defect that will never be erased by following him for a lifetime.
No matter how dull Tan Mo was, he could understand that Qiao Lan had just relieved herself. After she helped him prevent others from finding him standing up, she was still not a normal person.
Tan Mo suddenly thought of a word.
Reluctant to think about Shu.
The temporary stability and drunkenness made him a little overwhelmed.
In the evening class that evening, Tan Mo's kickboxing coach clearly felt Tan Mo's irritability. Although he was still expressionless, the strength of his hands was venting at first glance.
This teenager is the most ruthless and most desperate among the students he has taught. Just like something urging him desperately behind him, the coach sometimes asks Tan Mo when he is curious, but Tan Mo has never been anything. Say.
The coach didn't expect Tan Mo to say anything today, but he asked casually if something happened to him today.
The young man, who is gradually no longer thin, still clenched his fists, but his movements stopped.
He stood there for a long time, and suddenly he spoke in a very low voice, not so much as telling or asking himself.
"If there is a person you will never be able to catch in your life, what would you do?"
A person who can't catch up for a lifetime?
Although the coach doesn't know what Tan Mo's identity is, but Tan Mo's prosperous shots, and the daily pick-up and drop-off car is a daydream that he dare not even think of in his entire life, so he can know that this teenager's identity is definitely not simple.
Who can make this young man feel that he can't catch up with a girl no matter how much he can chase all his life, then what kind of fairy or miss?
If it were him, since he knew how to chase it, he couldn't catch it...
The coach said without thinking, "Then don't chase."
As soon as the voice fell, the coach saw the boy who had been expressionless, instantly getting a hideous breath, and his eyes were gloomy.
The coaches who grew up with very strong muscles were shocked by the sudden emotional changes of the teenager.
Although he had not had time to think clearly, the coach quickly changed his mind.
"In fact, I'm even more curious, why I think I must not be able to catch it." You see, you are so handsome and from a good family background. When you stop outside, there are a lot of young girls who come to WeChat and ask WeChat, the conditions are so firm. Said that I can't catch it, is it...
"Have you chased it before? The girl you like... didn't agree?"
The boy was silent for a moment, and then he said Shen Shen, "No."
Never chased.
Coach: ...so I still have a crush after a long time!
"Since I have never chased it before, how can I know that I can't catch it? Do you know?"
"understanding."
"Then, the relationship is bad?"
"well."
"...How good is it?"
"the best."
"Then go after it," the coach was anxious for Tan Mo.
Tan Mo lowered his eyelashes and shook his head, "No."
Why is it not working?
The coach didn't understand.
"She treats me as... a friend."
"How normal", the coach feels that this is nothing at all. "How many couples are developed from friends, although I don't know what is going on between you, but I don't think you need to be so negative."
"My opinion is that you always have to try everything. Since you have never pursued it, you can't conclude that this is impossible." The coach didn't know what to say, but he didn't expect that he would become eloquent as soon as he spoke.
"Because I think I can't catch it, I'll never chase it, then I'll never catch it, but if I try it, of course it may be what you think, but if it catches up, right? What if I do! It's you, there is a girl who likes to the bones, I just tried it and tried my best to chase it once. If I really can't catch up, then forget it. At least in retrospect, I won't feel sorry..."
without regret...
Tan Mo suddenly wanted to laugh.
He didn't want to regret it, but if Qiao Lan found out his thoughts, she would become a stranger from then on.
Compared with regret, this is the ending he can't accept.
The coach is still talking eloquently, saying that according to Tanmo's conditions, there is no need to be so unconfident at all, maybe the girl has already liked him so much.
Tan Mo closed his eyes and made an understatement. The coach shut up instantly.
The coach was stunned for a long time before saying, "Sick?"
Tan Mo had a physical examination almost every few days, and there was absolutely nothing wrong with his body.
"What disease?"
Tan Mo chewed the three words in his mouth for a long time before saying it with difficulty, "Mental illness."
coach:"......???"
Moved back completely unconsciously.
Tan Mo looked at the coach coldly. Although he didn't say anything, the coach understood the taunt in Tan Mo's eyes.
Look, no matter how much you just said, everyone will stay away from him when they learn that he has this condition.
The coach suddenly reacted, remembering his unconscious action just now, and suddenly wanted to slap himself, he wanted to explain, but he felt that it was useless to say anything at this time.
People's subconscious reaction is the most real reaction.
So it was for this reason that Tan Mo felt that the girl would never like him to accept him, and the coach felt that everything could be explained.
"...I'm sorry, I really didn't mean it..." Forget it, it's all for nothing, and what's more, Tan Mo doesn't care about his opinion. The coach sighed, "So that girl doesn't know you have ...Sick?"
"know."
know?
The coach was surprised.
After a long while, the coach finally said seriously, "I think the girl you like so much must be different from other people. You don't have to use the other people's views of you to evaluate her thoughts. Since she is early I know your condition, but still treats you well and treats you best, which means she may not care if you have...illness."
Tan Mo looked at the distance with heavy eyes, without speaking.
The coach sighed, "Tan Mo, maybe, I mean maybe, in the heart of the girl you like, you are more important than you think."
The conversation was over, Tan Mo stood up again and began to practice. The technique was still sharp, but compared to just now, he was finally a little less fierce.
In addition to normal schoolwork and free fighting, Tan Mo's learning content has two more.
One stock, one sentiment analysis.
Tan Mo came into contact with the stock after learning that Qiao Lan was interested in stocks.
Qiao Lan said that because she admired the biography of the **** of stock, she wanted to learn it, and Tan Mo made a decision in one sentence.
He always wanted to use various methods to make Qiao Lan have more feelings for him, even if it was not love, and other than that, Qiao Lan was very interested in stocks, he could learn first and then slow down. Slowly teach Qiao Lan.
But what makes Tan Mo feel very happy is that after he was really exposed to stocks, using mathematics and various analyses, Tan Mo found that this matter was much more interesting than he thought.
It's so interesting.
In addition, Tan Mo began to frantically learn emotional analysis.
He endured the discomfort and began to contact the psychologist again, and accepted the advice of the psychologist to make himself more like a "normal person."
He can never be a normal person, but he can work hard so that others cannot see that he is not a normal person.
This is an extremely difficult and lifelong learning.
The psychiatrist gave him a book dedicated to the symptoms of Asperger's disease. In this book, a total of 412 human emotions were identified and all emotions were divided into 24 different groups.
What he needs to do is to memorize all these 412 kinds of emotions and remember them in his heart. He doesn't understand, so he should remember and remember the expressions and actions that each emotion will show.
When a person is crying, what he needs to do, he doesn't know, then memorize it, and what he should do when someone laughs, all in mind.
In just a few days, Tan Mo felt exhausted physically and mentally.
Because he didn't understand, he could only search the memory bank after seeing a certain expression on a person, and then search for how other people should react after seeing this expression.
He must be fast, because if he is slower, some people will think he is slow, no one knows how long Tan Mo's brain has been running fast in just a few seconds.
Too tired, because the nerves were tight every moment, Tan Mo felt that he was exhausted by everyone.
But the effect was unexpectedly good.
Tan Mo is absorbing knowledge frantically and turning himself into a master of imitation. He can make the correct response to all kinds of most conventional expressions in the fastest time.
Some people say that Tan Mo is not expressionless at last, and some people say that Tan Mo is actually not difficult to associate. Only Qiao Lan, when everyone thinks Tan Mo is becoming more and more gregarious, feels a deep anxiety and A sense of violation.
Tan Mo began to grow wildly in a space that Qiao Lan hadn't noticed.
Only when facing Qiao Lan, can he show him who is fairly real because of the uncontrollable throbbing in his heart.
Qiao Lan asked him what was wrong, but Tan Mo was already able to lie calmly.
He said that he had received treatment from a psychologist, and it may be different recently, because the psychologist asked him to do so.
Even 80% of the half-truths are true. This is indeed the suggestion of the psychiatrist, but Tan Mo did not tell Qiao Lan that the psychiatrist warned him another sentence at the beginning.
The doctor said that when adults with Asperger's disease use their imitative abilities, they can communicate like normal people, and even begin to be handy and popular. Everything seems very good, but that will be the beginning of disaster.
Because the whole world will become true and false.
Once the real thoughts of the other party can be analyzed through slow analysis, and then no analysis will be done at that time, relying on the knowledge and experience to guess the other party's thoughts and react accordingly.
From then on, it's true, I can't understand anything anymore.
The author has something to say: ?? This disease is really confusing, and I have talked a lot about it. I don't know if there is an explanation in place.
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