Destroying My Own World

Chapter 131 Relatable.

"I did say that I won't forbid you from doing whatever you want, but I'm going to ask you this, Elena," Mykel paused as he stared back at Elena. "Is this really what you want? Because if you decided to do it, you're no longer my daughter," Mykel continued with a serious expression.

Elena immediately sucked all the life energy back into her body, and she looked sad and panicked at the same time. She then turned herself back to her twenty-five-year-old form and walked to the railing as she hid her face. She suddenly wiped her eyes and started to sniffle as she cleared her throat.

Although she was trying so hard to not make a noise, she couldn't help but start sobbing. Her tears couldn't be stopped and kept coming out like the waterfalls in front of her. She was embarrassed, angry at herself, and lastly regretted doing that because Mykel was disappointed in her.

"Look at me," Mykel said as he looked at Elena's trembling shoulders from behind.

Elena ignored his words as she tried to calm herself down and didn't want Mykel to see her tears. She couldn't face him because of what she had just done, and she didn't know if she could see him in the eye ever again.

"Elena Alester. Look at me," Mykel repeated himself.

Elena slowly turned around and glanced at Mykel with her red watery eyes so that she couldn't see anything but water in her vision. She then fully showed herself to Mykel, and she hugged herself because she was scared and ashamed of herself.

When she saw Mykel take a step closer, she flinched as if he was going to beat her up or scold her. Mykel realized that she was afraid, ashamed, and didn't want to be seen. He then gently wiped her tears with his right thumb as he caressed her cheek.

"Was I too harsh?" Mykel asked gently and quietly.

Elena shook her head weakly.

Mykel put his left hand on her right cheek and wiped off all the tears from her cheeks. His gentle touch was enough to make her stop crying, and she felt calm but still didn't want to look him in the eye.

As Mykel caressed her cheeks, he felt her cheeks getting colder and colder. He then realized she looked paler as she kept looking down, not wanting to be seen by him. When he was about to check on her, she suddenly fell, but Mykel managed to grab her before she fell to the ground.

"Elena?" Mykel asked as he was on his knees and helping Elena in his arms. "What's wrong?" Mykel immediately transferred his life energy to her.

Mykel was surprised when his life energy was rejected by Elena and couldn't enter her body. He was confused, but Elena didn't say anything as her body was drastically getting colder and colder just like that time. He didn't know what to do as he tried to force-feed Elena with his life energy that kept being rejected by her.

"I'm sorry, father," Elena said weakly as she hid her eyes with her hair. "I don't want to live anymore, I just want to die because I won't be able to forgive myself for what I did," Elena added as tears started falling again.

Mykel realized how easy it was for her to kill herself by just letting her life energy out. She had committed to her decision, and nothing could stop her from doing it. He knew she regretted her decision because she knew it would be impossible for them to go back to how it used to be and pretended like nothing had happened.

"Elena, look at me," Mykel said calmly as he stroked her hair so he could see her face and eyes.

Elena decided to look Mykel in the eye for one last time because she didn't want her last moment not to see him. Suddenly Mykel gently pinched her chin and then gently rubbed her lips with his thumb.

She didn't know what had happened, but she could feel the soft lips of Mykel on her lips. Her head went blank from just the kiss as Mykel passionately kissed her and held her so closely. She could feel that Mykel didn't do it because he had to, he was doing it because he wanted to.

They shared a kiss for a whole minute, and it felt amazing for Elena because it was her first time. She didn't know what to do as Mykel did everything and guided her to what to do with her tongue and lips. She softly moaned as she took a breath, and she started to know how to kiss him back properly.

"Don't ever say that word again, wanting to die," Mykel said as suddenly he put his thumb on her lips. "I have heard those words before, and I made a mistake to let that happen. I'm not going to make the same mistake again," Mykel pointed out as he stared Elena in the eye.

"I promise," Elena said without hesitation as she held Mykel's hand and gently kissed the base of his palm. She could feel how scared he was, and it had been proven that he was indeed treasured her.

Mykel kissed Elena's forehead and could feel the warmth coming back to her body. He felt relieved, but he wanted to check every part of her face to make sure she was okay. He kissed her eyes gently, next was her cheeks, after that was her nose, then her chin, and lastly her lips again.

"Let's take it slow," Mykel said after he knew that Elena wanted more than just a kiss.

Elena felt embarrassed, but she nodded her head in agreement. She then got up and stood on her own two feet with Mykel's help. She still couldn't believe what she had just experienced, and she was so happy that she couldn't stop smiling.

"We have fallen to the lowest point," Mykel said as he grabbed his cigarette.

Elena's smile disappeared when she heard that, and she realized that she had unintentionally forced Mykel to do it. This time, the guilt was shared by both of them, and that was the point of why Mykel kissed her in the first place. He wanted to ease the pain by taking most of it from her and making him responsible for all of it.

"We can never be the same again. The way we see each other will never be the same again," Mykel said as he smoked his cigarette. "But I have decided to choose you over losing you," Mykel continued and looked at Elena.

"This is a mistake and there's no turning back because it's either I'm losing you, or we break everything that we have built together," Mykel said. "We both chose this, and this is the consequence we have to bear. It will only get better from here because we are already at the lowest of the lowest," Mykel continued as he smiled at Elena.

Deep down, Elena still regretted it and even though it went as she wanted it to be. She couldn't say anything because she started it and lost everything.

"Don't dwell on it. Take it and embrace it," Mykel said.

"I think I understand now. About what Sasha felt," Elena said as she stood right behind Mykel and hid her face.

Mykel raised his eyebrows and tried to look at Elena over his shoulder.

"She loved you, but seeing you have fun with other women was painful. It wasn't because of anger or hatred, but because she also wanted to be loved just like how you loved those women," Elena explained as she rested her head on Mykel's back. "I could feel the pain that she felt, the pain of being treated differently from the other women you have. Loneliness, and yet we both don't want to let go of the feeling," Elena continued.

"I almost took the same path as her, ending my suffering of not being able to be loved by you. I understand now why she still clings to the feeling she has for you until now. I would do the same," Elena pointed out as she put her hands on Mykel's back and clenched them.

"That's why I don't want to make the same mistake again," Mykel said as he turned around and lifted Elena's face so he could see it. "Let's take it slowly because I'm not going to abandon you," Mykel added and held Elena's hands.