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Chapter 1875: Suddenly became a big sister (1)
Chapter 1875: Suddenly became a big sister (1)
Chapter 1875: Suddenly became a big sister (1)
Chapter 1875 Suddenly Becoming the Big Sister (1)
I have been kidnapped all my life, kidnapped by the upbringing of my parents, and kidnapped by my identity as the eldest sister.
"I can't see my parents working so hard, and I always want to share the burden with them. After all, they gave birth to me. My parents, who are getting old and in bad health, and my younger brothers and sisters, I can't be cruel and careless. I gradually fall into the trap of morality. Trap, life is all about self-sacrifice and dedication. Even if I suddenly wake up occasionally, I will be forced to forget by the trivial matters of life. I can't be cruel at all when facing them."
People around me say that my parents gave birth to me, and I will repay them throughout my life.
My parents said that as the eldest sister, I should take care of my younger siblings. My younger siblings will definitely repay me when they grow up and will not forget me as their elder sister.
"I also showed reluctance at the beginning, but there were comments from all directions that I was unfilial, that my parents had raised me in vain, and that my parents had pitiful faces. I was bound and surrounded by these accusations, and I was slowly transformed by them. He became the person who worked hard and never complained."
When my younger siblings grow up, my parents still tell me, as the eldest sister, to take more care of them. When they are dying, they also tell me the same thing, as if I am born to owe them.
Looking back on my life, what have I gained?
I am too tired in this life.
"In the days before my death, I hated myself a little. Why couldn't I be more cruel? Obviously no one thought about me. They didn't care about me. They just pretended to be pitiful and used family affection to kidnap me and oppress me. Why didn't I resist? Why cant you go far away?
Qian Yan: If you are in the middle of a situation and cannot see the whole picture, you will inevitably be confused and deceived by all the illusions.
The sad expression on the face of the white-haired woman holding the teacup froze, and she slowly raised her head, her eyes a little confused. After a while, she lowered her head again, and her voice was gentler than before: "I thought you would say pitiful People must be hateful, they will spurn people like me, they will think that I deserve it, or they will kick me out, and they will not help me realize my wish."
Qian Yan took a sip from the teacup and said: "Knowing the truth, but still stubborn, the desire conflicts with my ideas, so I will drive them out. If your wish is to let your parents, younger brothers and sisters understand you and treat you well, Family reunion, this conflicts with my philosophy and will drive you out."
This shouldnt be your wish, right?
The white-haired woman shook her head quickly: "I have been kidnapped for a lifetime. It is really hopeless to have such a stupid wish again."
"Then why do I spurn you? You are not a god, just an ordinary person. You were mentally controlled by a group of people and fell into the quagmire unable to struggle out. In this floating world, how many people can keep their heads clear at all times? They were all once Your relatives, you are soft-hearted and don't want to see them suffer. This is human nature. Moreover, they are so good at pretending to be pitiful and brainwashing you all the time. No one will remind you. You are so busy that you can't even take a bite of hot food. You can fall asleep on the pillow, so you dont have so much time to think. When you come back to your senses, a lifetime has passed."
The white-haired woman cried loudly and bitterly. Yes, she was most awake during the two days before her death.
Lying on the hospital bed, looking at the ceiling, reminiscing about her life, because these days were the most leisurely, she finally figured it out.
But, its too late.
You can tell me your wish.