Why Did I Become the Villainess?

Chapter 234 - : Pretense

 "Father, please reconsider. Csille doesn't know anything about medicine. How can you send here to the infected regions?"

 Csille looks at Prince Fraser. 

 Is he worried about me? Is he mad because I am insisting on going to the infected regions? Does he still care about me?

 His majesty sighed. "Fraser, you also know that aside from Doctors and nurses. We also need people who will help with some other things. I don't see anything wrong with that."

 Prince Fraser shakes his head. "The problem is, can she really help? What if she just burdened anyone there? The situation inside the infected regions is already worst. Do you think they will appreciate it if we send someone who doesn't even know what to do?"

 Csille clenches her fist and tries so hard not to let her tear fall. She was hurt because of Prince Fraser's words. 

 She already risks her safety just to help the people of Vrawyth Kingdom. Just to prove to him that she had already changed. However, in the end, he still sees her as the spoiled and pampered Csille.

 His majesty sighed. "Fraser, you should mind your words. It's not right to say that to a lady."

 Prince Fraser looks at me and shrugs his shoulders. "I am only telling the truth, Father. The Doctors and the nurses are all having difficulties dealing with this disease. Do you think they will appreciate it if you send someone who couldn't even help?"

 Csille takes a deep breath. "I will not be a burden. Your highness, do you think I would risk my life and go to the infected regions just to be a burden? I know I might not have a great personality when I was young, but I'm not that mean to be a burden to the Doctors and Nurses. Just give me an opportunity, and I will definitely prove myself to you."

 Prince Fraser looks at Csille for a couple of seconds before he shrugs his shoulders. "His majesty already gave you his permission. Does my opinion matter?"

 Csille is about to refute, but his majesty cut her off. "It's good that you're okay with it. Fraser, since you will go to the infected region too, why don't you bring Csille with you?"

 Csille immediately shakes her head. "No, it's okay, your majesty. I already told Brother Pascal that I would be coming with him."

 His majesty nods his head. "If that's the case, Fraser just help me look out for Csille during your stay outside the capital. Make sure that nothing will happen to the both of you."

 Prince Fraser sighed. "I will Father." He said coldly.

 Csille looks at Prince Fraser and bites her lips.

 Fraser, do you hate me this much? Do you really think I'm still the old Csille? I have already changed for good. For you. Why can't you see that? When will you see the changes I have made all these years? When will you see me? 

 "Fraser, why don't you take Csille around? It's been months since you saw each other, right? Why don't you two catch up? The Count and I will need to talk about other issues."

 "Yes, Father." Prince Fraser stands up. He then looks at Father. "I will be taking my leave, Count." Prince Fraser looks at Csille. "Come on."

 Csille immediately said her goodbye to his majesty and her Father before he silently followed behind Prince Fraser. 

 Prince Fraser walks inside the Palace and ignores Csille. 

 Csille looks at Prince Fraser's back and hesitates if she should follow Prince Fraser or just wait for her Father in their carriage.

 Csille notices that Prince Fraser is in a bad mood today, so she doesn't want to force herself to talk to him. She has already learned her lesson before. The more she forced herself to Prince Fraser, the more Prince Fraser got mad at her. 

 Also, I don't remember writing this scene. After Csille had his majesty's permission, she immediately went home. So, I don't understand why this is happening. Aside from it, I don't understand why I still couldn't control Csille body even if what is happening now is not what I have written.

 What is happening? Is it because of the reason Aaline told me? That someone is controlling this world aside from my novel?

 Csille stops walking when she sees Prince Fraser stop in front of his private library. He then looks back at her. 

 "Are you going to stand there, or you like to enter?" He asks coldly.

 Csille immediately walks inside the library. She just stands in the corner and waits for Prince Fraser to invite her to sit.

 Prince Fraser sits on the sofa and looks at her. She heard him sigh loudly. "Do you always love to make people invite you before you sit?"

 Csille clenched her fist. She definitely heard annoyance in his voice. She immediately sits on the opposite sofa. She knows Prince Fraser won't like it if she sits beside him.

 "I apologize. I was just taught by Mother that it is rude to just sit if the person did not invite me to sit."

 Prince Fraser did not say anything. He just picked a book and read it. 

 Csille looks around to entertain herself. Her gaze falls to a familiar book.

 "And this book." Prince Fraser raised a book entitled 'The Parallel Universe'. My eyes widened when I saw it. "It's about a theory that outside our world, there are other living people in a different universe. This book is fascinating." 

 I look at the book intently. "Can I take a look at it?"

 Prince Fraser looks at me and the book. He then passed the book to me. "I didn't know you're also interested in this thing. When I first read it, I thought it was quite absurd. Who would think something like that, right? But when I was halfway reading it. I realized a lot of things. What if there's really a parallel universe out there? What do you think, Csille?"

 That's the book Prince Fraser showed me before. It is the reason why I was frantically looking for the writer because I was hoping I could return back to the real world.

 However, I was wrong. The key is not with the writer. The key to return to the real world is to finish the novel as the villainess.

 "Why are you doing this?" Prince Fraser suddenly asks.

 Csille immediately looks at him and frowns. "Apologies, your highness. However, I couldn't understand what you were saying. Why am I doing what?"

 Prince Fraser put down the book he was reading and stared at Csille intently. "What's your purpose in going to the infected region? Do you think the disease is some joke, Csille?"

 Csille sigh. She's trying to control her emotions. She needs to be calm or rational. One thing she also learned from her past mistake is when Prince Fraser is not in the mood, she shouldn't do something to provoke him even more. 

 "I want to help those infected people. I heard from Brother Pascal how severe the situation is in other regions. I know I might not be a big help because I'm not a Doctor, but it doesn't mean that I wouldn't be able to help them."

 "So, are you telling me you're really concerned for them? That you are willing to risk your life? That it's not pretense at all?" Is that it?

 Csille clenched her fist. She can definitely hear a mocking tone in his voice. She wants to explain herself to him and shout at him. But she cannot do that because it will make Prince Fraser mad at her.

 Csille stands up. "Your highness, I know you still don't believe in me, and I understand that. I won't force you to believe in me. I will just prove to you that I am true with my words." She bows her head. "I won't be disturbing you anymore. Thank you for having me here. I will be taking my leave now."

 Csille immediately left the library and didn't wait for Prince Fraser's response. Prince Fraser didn't even stop her at all. He just picked up the book he was reading and read it. 

 After Csille closed the door of the library, Csille immediately disappeared. 

 I look at the closed door and sigh.

 He is back to the usual cold Prince Fraser. The Prince Fraser who hates Csille even if Csille didn't do anything wrong.

 I smile bitterly at myself. Prince Fraser, I have a lot of things I want to say to you, but I couldn't risk saying it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry if the real Csille will do something that will hurt you.

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 After Csille's conversation with Prince Fraser, I just wait for Father inside the carriage. The moment he returned, he immediately sent me home and left again for his monarch duties.

 I tried to look for Mother to share what happened with my conversation with his majesty. However, Mother is still ignoring me. She is still mad about me wanting to go outside the capital. So, I just let her be. I'll talk to her with Father tonight.

 In the end, I just prepare the things I will need for our journey to the other region. 

 I close my luggage and sigh. Prince Fraser and Princess Paislee will be going to the infected regions too. They will be checking the situation of those infected people and see what they can help.

 Throughout their stay there, Csille will be busying herself helping every people she can help. In hopes that Prince Fraser will see her again. That he will see she have changed for the better. However, Prince Fraser, on the other hand, won't even interact with her. He will just focus on his duties. On helping those infected people.

 Forget it. I'll just let the real Csille do what she is supposed to do. Why am I even overthinking things? The future was already written, and I cannot change it.

 I slump my body in my bed and close my eyes. I was about to fall a sleep when I heard a knock on my door.

 I open the door and find Brother Pascal standing in front of my room. 

 "Brother?"

 Brother Pascal sigh. "Csille, I heard from Aunt that you have returned. Have you..." He paused for a few seconds. "Have you asked his majesty for permission?"

 I nod my head at him and smile. "I did, and his majesty gave me permission to go the infected regions." 

 Brother Pascal looks at me for a couple of seconds before he shakes his head. "I know this will happen. Does Uncle know about this? How about Aunt?"

 "Father already knows about it. He was with me when I talked with his majesty. About Mother... I haven't time to talk to her. She kept avoiding me every time I tried to talk to her. Brother can you help me? I don't want to leave the Vrawyth Kingdom with my parents being mad at me."

 "I talked to them yesterday, but they still won't agree with your decision. You also know that they are quite stubborn too. I think it's best if you're the one who will talk to them. Maybe they will listen this time." He paused and looked at me intently."Csille, you know they only care about you, right?"

 I nod my head and sigh. "I know, Brother, and I understand that they are worried about me. Don't worry. I will talk to them tonight."

 Brother Pascal nods his head. He then excused himself. He said he still needed to prepare his things for our journey.

 I returned to my room and looked at the calendar. It's only days after we have returned to the Vrawyth Kingdom, and many things have already happened. 

 Am I ready for it? Am I ready to deal with what will happen?

 I slump my head on my table and sigh. I know I will never be ready for this.. No matter how much time this world gives, I will never be prepared to be the Villainess.